I Finally Have My Dad Back—Now I’m Losing Him

I had done a decent job of composing myself, until I couldn’t.

“It’s just not fair! Why my dad? Why him? He doesn’t fucking deserve this!”

Tears continued to trickle down my face as the attending nurse came across the room to console me.

Over the past two weeks, my family has experienced the debilitating agony, confusion, and heartbreak associated with complex medical diagnoses. It quite literally happened out of nowhere.

Like many who read my work, I don’t shy from vulnerability and raw content. But it’s been challenging to honor my father’s wishes, my family’s privacy, and process the pain and uncertainty I’ve been faced with so suddenly.